Matilda had been trying to deal with the loss of her daughter Stacy by putting all her energy into the military. For 5 years she had gone on missions abroad and did not visit Stacy’s grave once. But when she finally got herself to visit again, she started noticing that there was often an unknown young boy standing at the grave.
Matilda was shocked when she learned who he was and why he was there so often…
It had been weeks but finally, Matilda had worked up the courage to approach her daughter's grave again and confront the young boy who had been showing up in front of it every couple of days. She needed to know who he was and what he was doing by the grave of her daughter..
he boy saw Matilda, it was obvious he recognized her just as much as she did him; not at all. Only after he introduced himself did a light come on in Matilda's head and when he started to explain himself, there was no doubt left in her mind.When t
Matilda collapsed onto her knees with tears streaming down her face. All she wanted to do was hug this now very confused-looking young boy…
But how had Matilda ended up in this situation? Who was the young boy and what was he doing at the grave of Matilda’s daughter?
Matilda still had a hard time believing that her daughter was no longer with her. It was something she had ample time to prepare for, but that did not make it any less difficult. It's time for her to get over it and move on with her life. But that's not so easy though.
The day Matilda’s daughter Stacy was born, the doctors had already painted a very bleak picture for her. But Stacy was a fighter and for a long time she was beating all the odds. Her doctors were always baffled by how strong she was. They often said that she was one of the strongest people they had treated.
Every year that Matilda and her husband Joshua had with their precious but unfortunate daughter was a blessing. They treated it as such making sure they enjoyed every moment and making Stacy’s life as normal as possible. They enjoyed every moment with her.
But keeping their lives as normal as possible, also meant that Matilda would have to miss some parts of Stacy's first and only years as she was actually employed as a corporal with the military. That hurt her a lot. But she had no other choice; money had to come in, too.
Seeing her family situation, the military had made special arrangements that she would not have to go overseas for a mission in the foreseeable future, but she was still expected to contribute her tactical expertise from a base in the US. That base was more than a 10-hour drive from her home.
Sometimes this meant she would be away from home for almost a week. And every second hurt the poor woman but she knew that if she walked away from her job now, in the future she would neither have employment nor a daughter.
So she tried to suck it up and when the health of her daughter eventually went downhill to a point where the writing was on the wall, she decided to take up all her vacation time and then some. In total, that was more than 3 months of days off.
The military was of course not happy with this but allowed it. By this point, Stacy was 5 years old and had even been able to occasionally go to school. She had been fighting for so long and Matilda could not have been prouder. But it was good now.
The ceremony that followed was beautiful but still very intimate. Only family was present and 1 doctor, who worked with Stacy from the moment she was born and really felt like he built up a bond with her. He always told Mathilde that he would be with her until the end, he kept his word.
Matilda and Joshua would end up dealing very differently with the loss of their daughter. While Joshua was able to embrace the emotions, Matilda was looking for any way to distract herself from them. And the military would bring a good solution for this.
Matilda started going on long mission after long mission, being out of the country for months on end and barely even thinking about home. But of course, this also had a big effect on her relationship with Joshua. Their relationship went downhill over time.
He tried to stand by Matilda for as long as he possibly could. But with her giving him no sign that there would come a point where she would be home more often. He decided that enough was enough and left her. For Matilda it was a big blow, she really couldn't take this anymore.
But for a long time Matilda kept pushing every emotion away. But at some point they will catch up with you and for Matilda, this turned out to be about 5 years after Stacy had passed. Even though she felt that things were not going well for her, she did not expect to have such a severe emotional breakdown.
Joshua had left her about 3 years ago and seeing as she was almost never home anymore, she wanted to sell her house and buy something smaller and cheaper. But setting foot in the house again just brought back so many memories.
Matilda felt horrible about how she had handled her emotions in the situation and even worse about the fact that in 5 years, she had not visited Stacy’s grave once. What kind of mother was she? She felt very guilty, she wishes she could turn back the time.
She wanted to go and visit her daughter right away, but felt so guilty she could not possibly bring herself to stand at the foot of her daughter's grave. She just did not feel worthy. She had something or someone left who could lift her over this proverbial threshold.
But this was not for a lack of trying. Nearly every day Matilda drove past the graveyard or even walked alongside the edge, just being too embarrassed to approach. All she did was stare at her daughter's headstone for a few seconds. But in these moments, she did notice something else...